
At first I get angry; then I start having pity. I become pitiful to those who talk about religion and faith without having knowledge about either of these. Not to mention that Jesus is not a factor in their lives.
I have been thinking that if someone is talking about his or her faith in God without knowing Him, this is equivalent to a situation when someone is talking about love without ever being in love. This situation resembles a person who preaches to people who already have children on how to bring them up without ever having raised children himself or herself.
Something becomes too obvious in the thinking of ugodly – namely that religion is for the weak. In those people’s minds, religion is like a crutch and is only necessary until the moment when man can walk on his own again. Religion is not for the strong people. Such believe in themselves and this belief drives them forward.
I asked myself the question why Jesus was so hated by the Pharisees, and not only by them but also by the majority of people nowadays? The truth is Jesus was telling those people believing in themselves as well as the strong, the powerful ones, the ones who can see, that they are not gods, that they are weak and blind. In fact, the claim that religion (mainly Christianity) is for the weak is absolutely true. The weak need strength, the blind need to be able to see again and the sick need to be healed. That main paradox however is that in actual fact the weak are those who are truly strong, the blind can see and the sick are the healthy ones. To be objective and to be able to acknowledge the truth are great strengths. The truth, in actual fact, is that the world we live in is gravely sick. People’s souls hurt so much. We annihilate and hate each other and the worm of evil destroys everything. But only the strong person, who in this case turns up to be the weak one, can admit that!
I am asking myself how someone who is not even capable of wining the victory over his own self can have such a strong belief in himself? Such a person is a slave of his own self. He or she cannot stop ageing or avoid death, does not possess the ultimate knowledge, does not know what the future holds…What exactly within his own self can he or she believe in? Maybe that he will not lose someone close to him, that he will never be hurt or that he can live forever or that he can control the processes in his body, which he had been given for granted? Or, perhaps he can believe in himself because he possesses certain skills and talents? The latter sounds even more naïve. The terms describing the skills and talents prompt that they originate from outside ourselves in a sense that we have not created them but we are simply using them. This cannot be a good justification of the belief in our own selves. The Pharisees strongly believed in themselves. They were not atheists. On the contrary, they were ultra-religious. But they were gritting their teeth in anger when Jesus was throwing them off the throne on which they were elevated. Their self-belief had chased the faith in God away and God had become their servant. They were unable to see this. They were accusing Jesus of gathering together with whores and sinners; His answer to their accusations was very simple and succinct: “Only the sick need a doctor, not the ones who are healthy; my mission is not to summon the righteous but the sinners and to bring penitence upon them”. His simple words subjected to irony their self-praise of being healthy people. He showed them that they are the sickest because they do not see their misery.
I get agitated by the pride of those Bulgarians who are non-believers or, more precisely, of the pseudo-believers who believe in themselves and look down upon their “religious” fellow citizens and despise them. I get agitated because they are blind and do not see their misery and enormous need for vision and healing. But at the same time I become very pitiful towards them because despite putting themselves on pedestal, they are miserable and unhappy sinners, thirsty for love and recognition.
The state of our nation reminds me of the adolescence period in human life. At this age, one knows everything! The world looks simple and they (the youngsters) are ready to solve the problems of mankind in a single stroke. However, this does not last for a long time. After a few bruises, head bumps and stumbles, the reality starts getting inside the child’s mind. I hope the faith in God will follow a similar development path. God will gradually be rising and we will be diminishing as soon as we start becoming aware of our own insignificance and His greatness.
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